I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Well the talk was ok today. I didn’t get angry or anything but he discussed financially separating etc
Then he hit me with something that threw me a lot and that was a work opportunity he was planning to take to live abroad for 6-12 months. That I was never expecting. That person who was at peace a few hours before was absolutely floored. That man would have never left his kids for that long. D14 and S12.
I was shocked but held myself together. I told him I was letting him go and he said he was letting me go too. Went home and cried my eyes out though and still feel absolutely numb and shocked. I guess we are certainly done and over now. I feel so numb and still have been crying on and off all evening. I think that shattered the last of my tiny fragments of hope I had remaining that our lives would come back together. It might make my life easier to lose that love for him. But my poor children are going to be so upset. I am going ro be a mother and a father at once. Tonight I reach out to you at a time of weakness and complete vulnerability please fellow DB tell me there are blue skies ahead out of this storm I am in