I saw a great quote online yesterday, that I will think of anytime I am tempted to feel too much guilt or blame. Perhaps it will resonate for you too. It says:
"Assigning blame in marriage is like saying, 'Your side of the boat is sinking.'"
I see too many poster worried about the other side of their boat. Newbies keep talking about their spouse. There is an interaction between the two people. We all need to learn to control our side. We have exactly the same number of issues that we see in our partner. It takes a lot of focused work to see our own issues and address them. Our partner is just a distorted mirror we are using to help us.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712