I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Thankyou Kind
As I said I feel like I have finally found my voice and my courage( all bar my fleeting moments of wanting to profess my love to him in which case you all keep me in check).
His complete turn around of “oh maybe I will see how I feel and come say hi” after he just said “ I don’t want to see you tomorrow I am an emotional mess” was absolutely mind boggling. The indecisive. He looked so completely wrecked in the brief moment I saw him. He said he was emotionally wrecked. Had his head on the table. I felt so sorry for him😞 he complained I smothered him ( and I corrected him and told him I didn’t smother him I showered him with love when he needed it most)
Now a broken man and his emotions and I just sit and watch. At least the emotions are starting to surface I guess.
Anyway one step ahead of the other one day at a time