I am truly shocked after reading all this. What on earth is going on with that man? You must be a really bad person to do this to the persons who loved you unconditionally for years...
I am really relieved that your children are in no contact with him today. It can only hurt them more, and this after everything that has happened already.
10 years you say? I just can't imagine it. You really are a strong woman Gerda.
I so sincerely hope for you that it will end soon. No one deserves this.