W coming to town this week for what I imagine will be the final. She’s having the car ‘shipped ‘ to her new location. I’d guess the cost is major chunk of what the car is even worth. Not my problem though.
All the photos, cards, mementos, etc…that a few months ago I wasn’t ready to part ways with I have nearly packed and placed in the car. Time to let them go.
Continuing to do well overall but I’ve had a few down days this past week. W’s birthday was a major deal in her mind and something that was always well celebrated. Strange not to be involved. I imagine what the first Christmas could feels like. Allowing myself to feel down but not dwelling in it.
For all intents and purposes we’ve been separated for 7 months now even though she only moved her things out 3 months ago. No talk of divorce proceedings. I continue to stand for the marriage as I still don’t have a clear conscience on personally choosing to end the commitment I made 7 years ago. For now this is still her show; I don’t want to take over the director role. But at some point, if she continues to neither move towards divorce nor back towards our relationship it may become my responsibility to take that action. I can continue to go about my own life on my for now but I of course have no desire to be legally married indefinitely to someone who is no longer a part of my life.
