R2C, I think everything from all of you is really helpful for me. This has been incredibly difficult and I want to stay focused on DB and doing what is right and being well.
I have been coming to the realization lately that I am good on my own. I have known for quite some time that I would be ok eventually alone. But I am accepting that now I am functionally single. And my family and I are doing better without W in many respects. So I am seeing evidence that I am moving forward. No I’m not planning to date though socializing as I have been has opened my eyes to that future possibility. Not ready for another relationship. And I do want to hone my DB skills.
Yes I get thrown for a loop (eg the upcoming anniversary) but I’m back on track here. Being honest means that I face ways that I am not doing well and acknowledge my process and the progress I am making. I have encountered some recent setbacks in the effects of ptsd. Booked some extra therapy sessions. I need to reinforce the discipline of morning exercise. I am starting to box again now that the ball season is over. Planning some camping trips.
