Just reading your post stirs up unexpressed emotions in me. Typing that out must have been crazy hard. I hope K visits you in your dreams. That is when my brother visits me.
HUGS
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712