I’m 43 she is 39. She has said to me she’s afraid if she grows any older. It will be too late to start over. She’s afraid of 40. Kids are 2, and 4. She isn’t realizing that statistically. She has very little chance of “Starting Over” She says I’m her best friend, and doesn’t want to crush us financially, so she’s looking to start some sort of career. She isn’t qualified or educated. Seems like the less luck she has in the job market, the more she resents me. Meanwhile she sat in bed for 6 years while I encouraged her to get an education. That’s another source of resentment on my part. We rarely actually fight. Although we just recently had a an ugly fight after she came home so drunk she wet the bed. I cannot allow my children to see that. Her “accident” or the fight that came of it. I fear she will get hurt when she goes out drinking like that. It’s a scary place to be. Again I’m tearing up thinking of my children. I’m terrified of her being that drunk without me around. She couldn’t take care of the children that morning. I cleaned up her piss while she slept on the couch, and the girls ask whats wrong with Mommy. That hasn’t happened much, but once is too much for me. Please understand this isn’t the woman I married.
