Thanks. Reading that did provide some relief for me. It’s been very hard to refrain from over emotional behavior. I was/ am a functioning alcoholic which basically means any emotion I couldn’t handle subconsciously or not was diluted in alcohol. It doesn’t take heavy drinking to do that either. So now. Without my crutch. I’m struggling to process emotions. I’m smothering my wife.
I’m also having trouble with GAL. My family is my life. I work 10+ hours a day, and the moment I’m released from work I’m heading straight to my children. To cook them dinner, bath time, and bed. By then. It’s bed for me too. Then I get up and do it again. I’ve lived this way for years 4 years or more.
Since I’ve stopped drinking, I’ve become even more attached to them. I’ve tried to take on a hobby, but knowing the precious time I’m losing with my children. I’ve been unable to make any progress. It’s just a waste of money.
My wife has said this all would be much easier if I were still a drunk. Hurtful words I’ll never forget. But something I agree with. I worry I’ll decent into terrible alcoholism if I lose my family. I know how this reads.. But I am nothing without them. I had an empty life before them.
