Thanks all. Like I said in my post… I don’t believe I am backsliding… just processing some residual feelings that have resurfaced following OW’s death. It’s only been four and a half years since all of this started and it feels like a lifetime. XH took our twins on a two-week trip to the UK and sent me pictures and updates on their activities every day they were gone. I appreciated his effort to involve me. The texts were bittersweet though as they were on the trip he and I had always talked about taking them on…without me. Brought up some “what if” and “if only” kinds of thoughts that I wasn’t prepared for. I’m good now though and looking forward to leaving on a trip of my own this weekend.
Today is OW’s Celebration of Life. I thought about going because she and I had established a friendship and good co-parenting relationship. However, it would be awkward for me, for XH and potentially for our kids so I will be paying my respects from afar.
DnJ - Thank you for your thoughts. I knew my post would probably resonate with you given how similar our situations were minus the sudden TG declaration in front of the whole family. Still can’t get over that! Regarding the house. I think what I meant by emotional risk was just the stress that comes with building a home these days. I’m not sure it would be worth going through with so many possibilities of having things go south. I don’t want it to impact my relationship with my sister and BIL so it would be a risk. I was willing to risk it two years ago but now that reality has set in, I am not so sure about it. I really just want to get my own place and start living my life with a little less input from my sister and her husband. Would also like to get my stuff out of storage.
