I don’t know if anyone is reading my thread anymore…
I am still reading here and have been here now for 14 years. Not every day but I try to check in and pay attention every few days.
I would put my two cents in about the dying vs leaving debate as - once someone dies their is a finality to the whole thing. When they are still alive and not around anymore their is always a shroud around the whole thing.
That being said my advice is to live your life"as if" she has passed away. It is a way to keep moving yourself forward and leave the past behind.