Patt, When I see your posts they remind me of me a long time ago. Nothing could have prepared you for this. There are two things I want to tell you. 1. I recommend the book The Journey from Abandonment to Healing by Susan Anderson. 2. Your husband is not thinking like you. Observing his behavior from your perspective is not reliable. He is most likely detached from you. What you observe as caring behavior possibly only cordial. Take care of yourself. Wonder