So, W and I just had another 'talk'. As far as reconcilliation goes, the M is over. She asked me if I reviewed that stuff, and I told her I did. I again said none of this is my choice or decision, but I'll support her. She again asked why I would even want to stay married. Probably a mistake on my part, but I told her that in addition to believing D shoudl be the last resort, the last few weeks have been nice, and it didn't seem like we had to work that hard at it. She said 'I've been nice and happy because I feel like a huge weight is off my back now. I figured you felt the same'. Then she went on to say some stuff about 'growing apart, not in love anymore, etc'.
The good news is, at least initially, W and I seem to agree on most things (selling the house, dividing debts, 50/50 custody). No spousal or child support, and we each take our student loan debts. I told her I'd consider giving her my vehicle in exchange for some household assets.
She asked if I would help pay her lawyer fees, as well as the filing fee. I just laughed.
Oh well, it's been a long strange trip. Mentally I'm feeling ok. Still can't believe it's ending, yet in some ways I always expected it.
Thanks for all the help and advice folks. I appreciate it more than you know.
Married: 15yrs Ages: Me 49, W 44 Kids: S12 BD: around 4/14