Interesting as well, I am not getting feedback from those close to me- family, close friends, therapist that I am coming across as needy. Either they all are not being honest or I don’t show it in those places.
I think I will bring that up in IC.
That's because you are still Rock to them...
They are seeing you as you have always been...
They aren't seeing you from the outside, with combined years of learning and dealing with a WAS.
They haven't seen what works and what doesn't in regards to saving yourself , which ultimately is your one best chance at having another shot at a renewed marriage with your current spouse...
With that said....
Being "Rock" is what helped you get here....
So like the others have said, keep being "Rock" and work toward the result you are working to...
OR
Embrace what has been said to you, and find a way forward....
You keep saying PTSD, and I do understand how real that can be.
You keep going over it with your IC, which doesn't seem to be doing much. Basically, IF your IC fixes you, then they stop being paid.....remember that. Not saying they aren't good, yet their interest is waaaayyy more focused on getting paid than actually helping you....
So you CHOOSE to own your PTSD, or you ALLOW it own you...
Your IC can guide you, yet in the end.....YOU are the only person that is responsible/accountable for Rock....
And the choice is......you either do, or don't
You said you are re-reading DB/DR....
So how about maybe getting back to (or possibly finally starting) some DB101 principals....
