I'm still concerned that you are basing YOUR progress on HIS actions. DBing is about progressing regardless of what he is saying or not saying. Doing it not doing.
Pattnee l forget if you are in IC or not. But I think you'd benefit greatly from it. I feel you are in a codependent relationship. And unless you deal with that even if he comes back you'll just be setting yourself up for a future BD #2.
Remember, focus off of him completely and on to yourself.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018