Mach, I see what you are saying about the distraction. If I’m being honest, that’s accurate of me lately. I have had a setback with my condition (ptsd) and have been suffering with some overwhelming symptoms, emotions etc. I think it’s related to some big stressors lately. And it has been bringing to the surface very raw feelings in me towards W.
There is a line between, on the one hand, following the plan of utilizing strategies and skills to regulate my emotions and be healthy and well; and, on the other hand, just using activities (which can be great strategies in the toolkit) to avoid or distract from the pain. I had been making good progress on this over the last number of months and confess I’m struggling again.
I am working on this in therapy. I do believe I am on the right track overall. And I need to be careful and do what works for me right now while being faithful and responsible towards my family.
It is very challenging. And learning DB is difficult for me not gonna lie. I am working at it rereading DR, and implementing what I understand and what seems to be wise as I seek to follow God and be faithful to Him and His ways.
As indicated by the 2x4 asteroid belt I am orbiting through, I’m not doing some things well and I am slow and needing to learn lessons over again.
