I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Thanks Mike
Yesterday was incredibly tough being Mother’s Day. Kids had bought me a great gift and H came over in the morning to bring me coffee and breakfast. That was incredibly kind.I spent the afternoon/evening at a sporting event with the kids which was fun but behind my happy mask underneath I was hurting and wishing for my complete unit to be together. It’s hard being out and seeing other family units and realising you always took that for granted. Ended up tearing up again before bed and just letting it out. Could be hormones I don’t know, however kept wrestling with myself as to whether I need to finalise this now and call it over with H and start proceedings. I know once I do that there is no turning back for me.
Did anyone else used to get those feelings along the way? I feel ok now that feeling subsided and I keep reminding myself be patient it’s only been a few months and there is certainly small positive signs. Going to put my walls up this week and try and distance myself a lot more I think. As Steve said let him miss me a bit too.