I’m still so lost -Pt 2

[Pattnee5]

Thankyou Steve. From what I gathered he woke up feeling rubbish for his emotional anger storm out. So quickly sent a message that AM asking for space. I didn’t respond. I actually didn’t respond to several messages. Then his reality obviously kicked in and guil and apologised multiple times. Then obviously when the apology was out and his emotions had lifted he decided he was ok again( or just seeking comfort or something) anyway I had a nice night with my space.

Yes I used to jump at messages and responding but now I am tending to ignore them alot more because if k am honest and think back to once BD and when he moved out he would ignore alot of mine to so I thought stuff it.

I saw him briefly this morning when he picked up
The kids.I was busying myself in the laundry and again he came in and apologised for the way he acted and proceeded to hug me tight. I felt myself quite cold on my response which I didn’t like. Proceeded to tell me it was all him and the anger was not on
And I am not a punching bag. That’s where I spoke upand just said yea I am not a punching bag.
Anyway it’s a tough one to Navigate I know he genuinely cares, maybe even still has feeling buried in his emotional turmoil.

I don’t like those angry outbursts though and just solidified another part for me that I am glad he isn’t living here with that not in control because that would happen more often.
Anyway Thankyou Steve you always give me stuff to think more about and ponder

I’ll try the notifications