Finding the rollercoaster pretty hard to ride this weekend. It was my birthday yesterday & I spent most of it in tears because H didn't send me a happy birthday message. I've been much better at dropping the rope but for some reason, this just hooked me right back in. I really wanted to message him to let him know how hurtful it was but managed to stop myself from pressing send but the emotions are strong despite the GAL activity.
Gulood job not sending those. I'm sorry to say this but sending those messages wouldn't matter because he just doesn't care. I know that hurts, but the messages would have backfired.
So MA, this has a silverlining. he's showing you thru actions who he really is. Before I met my wife I had a long term on again, off again relationship. I never missed her birthday. Then I met my wife. The first year we were together I didn't even think about my exgf's birthday. Why? Because I had moved on. (BTW she called me a couple of weeks after her birthday to temp check me.) I say all this to say that maybe this will help you with your detachment. I know it hurts now, but understanding that he is moving on might help you do the same. I look forward to next year when you don't even care if he contacts you for your birthday.
Hugs. There is light at the end of the tunnel and it does get better.
Last edited by SteveLW; 05/13/2303:17 PM.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
