Having Mum and Dad over is a thoughtful idea from the kids.
My first birthday after bomb drop was my fiftieth. Two months post BD. 50 is a rather big milestone, and it passed very much not at all like I had always imagined it would’ve.
At the time, “would’ve” was actually “should’ve”. I felt robbed. I felt my “planned” future was ripped away. And of course, this triggered and reinforced all sorts of emotions - fears, sorrow, sadness, depression, and so on.
Ah, unmet expectations. They certainly do build resentments and understandably skew our view.
Originally Posted by MA1970
…I also worry that I will just drift completely from him.
Yep. I too bobbed about, lost at sea. Worried and fearful of what my life would be like sans my wife.
The quickest way through this quagmire is a straight line. It is a heck of a slog through all the brambles and bog, pitfalls, switchbacks, and such. Keep your headings steady. Keep them noble and true and purposeful. Keep moving forward.
Of course, there are times when we just need to sit. Right there in the road, and cry, scream, stomp. And there are time we fall down too; hurt and weary. It’s perfectly fine to rest for a spell, then stand back up, dust off, and continue the journey.
MA, well done not sending a message to H; for stopping yourself. Sure, your emotions are understandable strong. And they are valid. And they are fleeting. Still, within all that, you do control you. And you just proved that in excellent fashion.
Hold your head high. Continue to be strong. Walk your path. And a Happy Birthday to a wonderful gal! (((Hug)))
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Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
