I’m still so lost

[Pattnee5]

Still feeling really deflated at the moment. Nothing has happened to cause it I think just me and being impatient and wanting this situation to end. I’m def impatient I know. I keep thinking this limbo isn’t good but then remember MWD in her book says to celebrate the small wins and not have such big goals. I guess my big goal is H to say he wants to come home and work on our M.
I am missing sight of the smaller wins and goals right now like how much he has made progress and changed and signs of affection and wanting to be around and even just celebrating sitting and chatting over a tea or having dinner together. I keep forgetting we haven’t done that for a very long time.
I assume it’s normal to have days where you just feel blah and think nothings going to change. The joys of female emotions I suppose