I’m still so lost

[Terapin]

"I really don’t understand why some men are so completely stubborn to talking about their emotions and feeling and having IC. In the past he saw an IC and said it was amazing and loved it, but now he’s so resistant"

Hi. Sorry, I don't know how to 'quote' specific parts of a post!

What DnJ said is true. Men are just different. But I'll take it a step further, and this may be just me.

I've been thinking a lot about this since my BD. I'm not much of a 'talker' to begin with, but I am really sentimental, emotional, etc. So why did I rarely show that side to my W? Fear. Not only fear of W (or anyone) thinking I"m a 'sissy', but fear of making her mad.

For instance, if something was bothering me, I'd just bury it, cause I didn't want to upset her. "I'll just deal with it" was my thought process. But after a while, those things buried start to build and build, until eventually it explodes. When W and I were in MC years ago, I liked it. Not necessarily talking about my feelings, but having that mediated forum where we could both get things off our chests.