I’m still so lost

[Pattnee5]

I am just coming on here to vent. Nothing has happened to cause this I have just had a very flat feeling day and feel deflated, sad, tired. My patience is low. I’m sure all very common and you all had these moments. I know they pass, but sadness and loneliness creeps in from time to time and I miss H. I still believe in soulmates and believe he is mine. Sometimes I hate being a female and all our romanticised ideas and beliefs and fairytales. I’m still doing alot of my own personal work, trying to grow and learn more, read more, self improve. I have started to give myself a set time to grieve as suggested on here And feel and let the emotions go. However I am so sick of crying too.
My DB is going good, worked a bit today, spent time with the kids, walked the dog with friends then had dinner with kids. I never used to be a patient person, I think the biggest lesson I am going to take away from this is how patient I can become. This certainly stinks and is difficult. I still love him so very much. I’m telling you guys because I know I can’t tell H
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