One month may be a drop in the bucket for some, but when W seemingly wants to fast-track the D to be done in 90 days, every day counts. I'm sure once things get really rolling, it'll be almost impossible to stop.
As for GAL. It was for both, myself and M. Myself for mental piece of mind, recognizing my faults, etc. But ya, having W notice and reconsider is obviously in the back of my mind. No, I don't blame DB'ing for pushing her farther to D. lol. It's just weird to me that a month ago she was 'leaning' towards D, we've had a really good month, and now she's 'certain'. Again, I still would not be surprised in the least if there was OM involved. But I try not to think about it.
Have I given up? Perhaps. I mean how can you not at some point? I tend to take people at their word (stupid, I know), especially when they hand you documents and have spoken to a lawyer. My W is smart, successful, and beautiful. She also has a lot of demons. Would I be better off without her? Honestly, maybe.
Our son is really smart, and is a really good athlete. But he's extremely sensitive, hard on himself, and lacks self esteem (he's really small for his age). He may handle it like a champ. But the thought of having 'the talk' with him is unbearable. And IF he can't handle it and it leads to serious problems, that's something I would never forgive my W (or myself) for.
I'm not in IC. I may call our previous counselor. IDK if she's even still around. You gotta remember though, my W is also a therapist, and knows 90% of them around here. So it's not as easy as it sounds.
Married: 15yrs Ages: Me 49, W 44 Kids: S12 BD: around 4/14
