What a perfect chance you had to not go and do a 180. You had a great chance to leave her wondering where you were, what you were doing, but nope.
I'm sorry but from your small update you can tell the focus was on her.
This is how your update reads to me,
Hey went and played ball again, I knew my STBXW would be there so I went. I tried to stay focused on other things, but I focused on her. I noticed she kept engaging everyone. Maybe next week when I go she'll notice me.
Me: 40 EX:37 Together 17 years Married 16 years 5 kids, 20,18,15,14,11
