Struggling with my current paradoxical state of mind of not wanting to divorce but wondering when W will actually file and wishing if she is so hellbent to do so that she would get on with it.
Previously gave excuses about why she wouldn’t be able to do it for at least a couple months. This is just so hard for me to understand as I imagine if I felt the need to tear my life apart in this way I wouldn’t dawdle on taking this step.
Practicing mindfulness has helped deal with this and similar thoughts. But it always seems to creep back in.
