After reading the last comments I want to share this, i am human i have lust of course but i am not looking her for lust, honestly i have had infatuation but not Limerence myself, i have been lucky in life when it comes to women not only women but physically beautiful woman, so no it's not sex, sex can be easily accesed, i love my wife but i hate the pain I'm feeling, i love her so much that seeing her in this destruction spiral is killing me on the inside and i don't have good coping mechanisms unfortunately, after 4 days of alcohol and even hooking up which i agree i should have not i was left with a worse feeling than the one i had because i realized i wanted this sometimes while being married but now i understand its not what i want, i want to keep working in trying to fix this but i really don't know how to ease the pain a little to keep hanging in there, it's been to hard on us honestly but i thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the advise.
