Rejoice, I see you struggle with "waiting" and "patience".

DBing is about moving yourself forward, not just sitting and hoping he throws you a bone. And GAL activities planned? How are your self improvements coming? Are you working on becoming the best version of yourself? Those two things are the best ways to work towards detachment.

I agree with you, it is unfair. However, when life is unfair, during back and waiting for life to get fair rarely works. Being someone's Plan B is not a fun place to be. Double down on moving your own life forward. He'll keep you stuck where you are for as long as you allow him too.

One last thing. I mention your self improvements above. The biggest self improvement I can see is too stand up for yourself and refuse to be held captive by someone that is also involved with someone else! (NOTE: You do that through action. Not words!

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018