I’d say your more then 50/50 because you are here again. I get limbo/waiting [censored]. You filing for D is not going to make you feel better. What will make you feel better is solving some of the unknowns. Speak to a lawyer to ease your legal concerns. Look at houses to ease your future living concerns. Do things solely with your son to ease your solo family concerns. Flirt with women (flirt only) to ease your I’ll never find anyone else concerns. As for being nice, consider yourself lucky because some are complete aholes at this point. IT’s journey that you can fight or embrace. It’s your choice.