I’m still so lost

[Pattnee5]

Thankyou Steve it was funny it dawned on me about an hour after I wrote the first message that I needed to 180. I have been sort of 180 on myself since December made a lot of changes in myself and my priorities ( working less, doing more of the heavy home lifting-I worked two jobs so I am prioritising weekends now for me and the kids) even myself as a person and my approach, calmer, not nagging a lot of self reflecting and changing my ways. This is all because of the counselling I have been doing. So this is all been a huge wake up call, and now reading DB and about the 180, I think wow I need to do more on that aspect, and let my sadness and insecurity slide. I can’t control his thoughts and actions but I can sure as hell control
Me. It’s funny a few weeks ago we had an amazing conversation being open sitting and discussing our situation we got nowhere because he kept saying he doesn’t want to say it’s over for good because he’s not sure and wants time to work it out. Anyway one thing I was happy about was he told me he really admired the changes I had made in myseld( then started crying) so I guess at least he noticed
Anyway just a little story.
Thankyou Steve to helping you are right the gaming shouldn’t bother me because I shouldn’t be seeking his attention