I’m still so lost

[Pattnee5]

Hi Joseph
We worked through it, we went to counselling together. He was was I was so remorseful and apologetic, it took a while but he said he forgave me and wanted to move on and we did. Trust took a while but he did tell a close friend of ours he knew I would never do it again and trusted me completely. It was a bad time for me and in our relationships and I didn’t handle things very well or very maturely. Obviously he played a part too but nothing excuses it for how i handled it. It took a long time and a lot of hard work to move forward, I know I pleaded alot for our love then ( even though It’s not right). After a while he stopped bringing it up. And didn’t for a very long time until he started to have issues and get drunk a lot on his own and get angry. I don’t know whether he blames his current situation and feelings on himself for not leaving 9 years ago and feels if he left then he wouldn’t be like he is feeling now