Every divorce forum I read says it's imperative to be the first to file. If she's having 2nd thoughts, I'd probably be willing to wait and work on it. If she's still preparing, I should probably file. Wish I knew
Do not make this decision based on her thought process. Do not file based on fear. Do not let fear control you.
Do you want to divorce her? Yes = file No = work on you.
If she files, then you can review her paperwork and counter. It is just negotiation and a business transaction.
With that said, Go get free consults with the top 3 divorce attorney's in your area. Knowledge is power. Also, she most likely will not be able to retain them since you have spoken with them (confirm this with the lawyers as well).
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712