I don't know how well I'm doing with all of this. It still feels a bit of a minefield.
In terms of GAL, I think this week has been pretty good. It's a bit sad that I feel proud of this but I've defrosted my fridge freezer myself & plan to tackle a flat pack chest of drawers tomorrow. I've always considered these jobs as H's role so will be really happy if I can put together the chest of drawers independently (& I managed the fridge with the aid of a hammer & chisel & a few tears). I've had coffee with friends, walked 4 miles every night & had a lovely night out with friends tonight.
I'm starting to feel more detached. It still fluctuates & I can still get sucked in to responding emotionally but I'm starting to see this is a long game. H is still in affair fog. There's no penetrating that & pointless even trying to. I'm looking better than I have for a while & getting lots of compliments (I think its the 40lb weight loss!). Its still really hard & haven't quite managed a day without tears since BD (14th Feb) but definitely not as intense or frequent as previously.
