Right ok, I was making dinner and I have been working on the garden. While everything was cooking, I realized I was not stressed about the dinner - it was all coming together and I had time to do some more of my yard work for 15 minutes. So it was a feeling of competence and confidence that showed me I am growing and being strong on my own.
I did all of this for me. D had said she wasn’t going to be around for dinner. I took note that I wanted to make myself a good meal and I did it well, made progress with the garden and also followed through on going out to bible study. Not long ago, before DB, I was in shock, in fight and flight and couldn’t concentrate on making such a good meal, didn’t have appetite, wasn’t able to do things in such a peaceful, joyful way (going on adrenaline and cortisol) and would have chosen not to go out for a social/spiritual pursuit.
