Hi Rock, I think understanding the difference between happiness and joy is important here.

the amount of times you hang with your daughter and other people. go to all these fun places and do so much activities has to make you happy. You probably do more than 3 of me could find time to do. Plus there’s no way I’m cooking a meal, especially chicken (I don’t wanna overcook it.) and hauling wheelbarrows of soil around the the yard. it is clearly obvious you are happy doing these things. Who wouldn’t be, but (there is always a but) all this happiness revolves around the people you surround yourself with.

On the other hand, there is joy. It is something you have when despite things are not going your way, despite things being uncertain, you feel security and peace within you. It is something within you and and doesn’t need all those external factors to make you feel good. Helps you live in the present moment. If you have joy, it will last much longer than happiness will ever.

Relying on people around us can be harmful because it’s temporary. It seems like you maybe relying on others instead of looking at things inside you. Look at yourself, are you consciously in the right mindset to think about how yourself can help yourself? If you don’t know if you are in the right mindset consider meditating and eventually you will will know

Buy the way, you were on a huge roll of not mentioning your W. Stop unconsciously going through the process and those splat outs that you thought you should put out here because you read it somewhere will stop happening.

Keep rocking 🤟


M:51 W:43
T:17 M:15
S:13 D11
10/2022 BD/IHS
03/2023 W moves out