The thought I spat out about telling W that I am considering it (which truth be told I am not ready for) came from a book I was reading and the idea was fairness to inform one’s spouse they are thinking about it but I see that would not be sensible for me. And my intention wasn’t to manipulate her. I want to act in healthy, powerful and respectful ways and keep learning how to not be manipulative.
What purpose would it serve to "tell" her ??
Would "telling" her make you feel any more, or any less "married" ?
How would telling her, change the way that you approach life right now ??
Why would it take tearing her down, for you to build yourself up ??
More of the same schidt that's been floatin around here lately....
Telling her, are just more words....
Living it without the words, are actions...
Rock....just be for now....
Sit on your tongue, and just be....
Take this GIFT of time and figure out who the heck you are when the lights go out...
Take this time to kill the fear that lives within you...
Stop trying to talk your way out of something that you acted your way into.....
One other thing.....
IC is great in most situations...
Just drop the expectations that your IC is solely responsible for "fixing" you....
Fixing you, is totally up to you, and you alone....
