This is truly the one of biggest issues to overcome in my life. Even before this my days were fairly adventurous and busy thus I am already GAL'ing quote heavily. I am truly trying my best to work on my listening, validation and other personal skills. Reading, spending more time with my dog, family & friends, working out every other day, realizing my old dreams. Family and friends were shocked when they learned about this as well.
Yet, it is still incredible hurtful to be brought down from emotional peak (wedding) to emotional hell (divorce). In a way, I am trying to justify her actions myself to understand why this happened better. Everything is still work in progress. I can go 2 weeks without big issues, but then she drops another bomb and it gets tough again. As if she is waiting for me to move on a bit to reattract me back into this situation. Perhaps it is only coincidences. This shows that I need to work on detaching & letting go.
Tomorow I will try to consult with lawyer on this separation agreement. I plan on being silent for a bit and maybe reverting back on weekend or sometime later.
It's ironic, how 4 months ago I got a major promotion, we were planning a big trip to USA, buy a house and now I will have to rebuild from scratch. I have to be "killing" at work to earn respect, yet this is happening on personal level. I have to stay fully focused.
"“A diamond doesn't start out polished and shining. It once was nothing special, but with enough pressure and time, becomes spectacular.”
I'll either break or truly become a man that only a fool would leave. Hopefully its the second one.