I'm struggling today, tearful from the moment I woke & trying to keep it together as I've got a full day at work. I've got strong urges to reach out to H today, which I'm not following but wanted to ask a question. Whatever happens H is the father of our children. I can see he's trying his best to stay in touch with them but they're older and angry & understandably are only doing it on their terms. My question is, if I want to remain on good friendly terms with H regardless of the outcome of our relationship, how do I go about setting the foundations for this at this stage of DB? I want to ask him to go for a coffee to tell him about what the kids are doing etc because he's only getting their angry side. If I reflect on my reasons for wanting this, I will admit that its partly just to see him & hear him but there is another part that wants this all to be amicable. How do people approach different stages? Even as I'm writing this, I'm answering some of my questions. I think the reason I feel so wretched is that he has been in contact with kids & my hope has been sparked again because he's been asking about me, telling them how much he cares for me, showing signs of interest at what I'm doing & also saying how depressing his bedsit is! However, there is still no getting away from the fact that he still chooses OW. I just want it to get easier. I have days where I think I can cope with anything the universe throws at me and days like today where I feel I can't cope on my own. I'm rambling again (never a good sign!)
