Rock I know you're struggling. I am too so don't take this as me putting you down or bragging about how well I'm doing, I'm not. The thing is I finally have stopped operating out of fear and have really stopped looking back to see if what I'm doing is working. It was HARD getting here. It's not so hard staying here though. I am happier and see things more clearly. I am seeing things in our old R that I was overlooking. I have no desire to go back to our old R and will not. I still love her dearly and don't want to think about a future without her. I also don't want to think about a future that looks like our past. I don't have any sage words of wisdom or magic tricks to help you get through this. Just know that the people giving you advice know what they're talking about. I'm finally getting there and it is so much easier. My stress level is almost zero concerning our R. I'm aware of how things are going. I just don't worry much anymore. Do yourself a favor and just let her go. Hang in there, we're all pulling for you.
