New to this! #2

[Rejoice]

I'm still waiting on this "decision" that H is supposedly making.

We had a great time together over the weekend. We spent 3 full days together, working on projects and hanging out, lots of laughter and some frank discussion. In the past spending that amount of time together would have resulted in multiple fights.

H is aware that unless we're going to try for a real marriage without OW in the picture, that I'm going to move on. For now, in this limbo, we are friends. The waiting is extremely difficult for me, but I'm not about to pursue him or push him. He has to want me.

This is probably the most painful thing I've ever gone through and I've lived through some really painful things. Ugh.