Thank you so much for caring R. I feel others seem to get it much better than me. D came back from dinner (turns out he just took her to McD's). She said he seemed annoyed that I'd gone out 2 Fridays in a row and said I can't be that upset! He also made reference to me being with another man on these nights out which firstly isn't true and secondly is inappropriate conversation for D(16)'s ears! He asked what time I got home & said again how I had taken my wedding ring off to go out with another man. Its bizarre how he makes whole situations up in his mind when the reality is I'm sat at home broken!
In terms of my team (great idea by the way). My biggest support is my mum. She's amazing & there for me whatever with great words of wisdom. She's asked me to do a timetable for the evenings this week to keep myself occupied. I've got a good friend who I walk 4.5miles with most nights. I think it was kind18 who said to do some more physical exercise but I've got an injured knee so I'm not sure I can commit to that st the minute. I've got another close friend who I meet for coffee at least once per week & she is good at providing a balance. I'm guilty of endless scrolling trying to find answers & I think this activity has been unhelpful this week. My food intake is still difficult. I've dropped 35lbs in 6 weeks. I'm trying the protein shakes but takes me half a day to finish one! On the positive side, I'm sleeping well and I'm fairly certain I'm not depressed, just distressed.
Thanks for the hugs, they're gratefully received at the minute
