One day at a time.

[Rockon]

I hear ya Mike. I’ve been thinking of getting a bike too! Interestingly I haven’t mentioned it to W - my sitch is different in some ways to yours - this week she sends me a phot of a collector bike she thought I might like (in fact she mentioned that eldest S might like it).

My thoughts for you are :
-I think you are doing a heck of a job and it’s really not easy. Maybe give yourself a bit of a break.
-own your power be strong for the benefit of yourself, who you want to be what you want out of life. That’s attractive for a woman (might be your W in the future ) who wants to be with you.
-know what you want in your ongoing M if that happens and don’t settle. Terry Real has some really good stuff on this. Be clear.
-listen and validate. Be curious. You might not know a response that fits right away - could say I need to give that some thought. Don’t react.