Friends: Season 4--Struggling for balance

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{{{{{betsey}}}}}
WOW... okay, so KK stole my thought...

UGH... I hate that word, patience... but I agree, he seems to actually finally be THINKING and I think you have to let him think. The last time the two of you had an incredibly meaningful convo (okay, maybe second to last) he wouldn't even admit to having been thinking about things. So, there is that...

Him feeling good about sending you flowers, there is that, too.

My H has also said that he feared being judged forever by me, and also that he did not know if he would ever love me again... why are you thinking that Mr. W is projecting his fear about you never loving HIM again? I only ask this to selfishly try to glean a bit of hope from your conversation with him for my sitch...

Betsey, your posts really comforted me... that you are HUMAN and just as "right there" as the rest of us... I feel so confused lately... I KNOW I am paddling in the right direction, I KNOW to be patient and to continue to persevere (have you noticed the word "severe" is in that word? that has always bothered me...) the Lord has posted those signs in front of me many times... but the problem is, I don't see anyone else paddling with me... am I out in front or hopelessly behind??? And will I be here alone forever? Geez, even the Costco checker hits on me, in front of my son... why doesn't my H find me the least bit attractive? But I digress.

Slow as sea coral... but definitely growing, hang in there, girlfriend.