Wolfman Moving Forward 5

[Wolfman]

Hello everyone. Been a little while. I read those other comments. We are not active so that is not a problem. Honestly, i am scared to split up. How am I going to deal with another baby mama, what about the baby, how often will I see him, I will be able to pay another child support? I am petrified of all of this. This is why I continue to suck up this relationship. I do t know what to do. I understand only I can make a decision. I feel like a failure, I know I missed red flags, you all were telling me not to do this. I was so broken. I wanted to feel whole again, but went about it the wrong way. Lately I have been so depressed, I just feel like hopeless. If we break up what will that entail, stay together what will that be like day in and day out. I wish I had the strength to end it. Now she is telling me she needs a break, that she is so depressed and stressed. She wants to go visit family for a week with the baby. I feel different emotions about that, part of me wants her to go, the other part says is there more? I am just all over the place emotionally. Please call just need people to talk to. I am sinking fast. 😔
I know a lot of you want to tell me you told me so. I get it. All the mistakes I made. I just am looking for support.