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[Rejoice]

Hey, thank you for asking.
I'm getting stronger. I'm taking everything to God and trying to rely on that relationship for the validation and love that I'm missing, and I have more peace and joy as a result.

Most of the time now I'm able to say, my H's problems are not my problems. He's going to have to deal with them himself because I have no control over him. It hurts badly, but I'm detaching. This battle, possibly MLC, is one he has to work through on his own.

My H has noticed my changes. He's commented on them and seems rather flustered by them.

I've always been the only person he knows that can hold her own and stand up to him. He's always loved that, and somehow in my heartbreak I lost that bit of myself momentarily. Now it's back but in a gentler way, that validates his feelings.

I went to stay with a friend in another state for a few days, to help her after a surgery. He's made a comment about missing me. He called me last night. I will return home in a couple of days, and then he is scheduled to take all of our kids to see his family in another state for a week, which he's previously made it clear I'm not invited for. (A family vacation without Mom... Makes me so sad.) So there's going to be a lot of opportunity for him to miss me.

I plan to read read read, self care, do some things I want to do for me. I think it will be good.