Thanks to all of you for the kind words. A most sucktastic day. I called her today and she spilled it - it was the guy from her past - the one I mentioned where they lived together. She is currently in GA now and due back next week. Our talk was fairly short and to the point. She informed me that the divorce will go ahead and that this is the chance she’s wanted since they split up.
As for me, I’m about as good as I can be. I knew something was off, and while it hurts like nothing before, I’m also kind of glad that sword isn’t over my head anymore. Not sure if I’ll ever be right as she destroyed my trust. Now, as for the affair - I’m as angry as one can be but I also know what’s at stake. I won’t do anything stupid to jeopardize things. I went from wanting this to work to not caring. But don’t get me wrong, there’s a dark hole in me that I’m not sure will ever be filled.
It’s all about the kids now and how I can be their lighthouse. As much as I am theirs, they are my port in the storm. Maybe one day I can come out the other side. The kids are setting up our movie night and they want an all nighter. We still do the same ritual that we have done since they were very little - making pallets on the floor, popcorn, and movies. They are my life.
The question was put to me about if affairs are deal breakers. I’ve thought about that and have come to the conclusion that they are. This isn’t the first trip out there she has done, this makes number five.
