Jolly, I having nothing new to add in terms of advice, but I do want to offer a {{{{{hug}}}}} because that is just plain hard to hear.

I'm so sorry that there's been a bit of a confirmation of what you already know.

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver