DnJ-Breakfast was good. My favorite uncle met us at the restaurant. They get along well and the two of us have always been close. No follow up on the books. We will do lunch in a couple weeks though for sure.
Good questions about the anger. My first thought is that the anger is because of things that are happening now. Realistically it’s probably all of the above to one degree or another. Somedays she seems so much like her old self, sometimes for multiple days. Then she seems to want nothing to do with me. Of course it’s my fault for letting it get to me and having expectations. It’s so difficult when we are together and it feels normal and good again, only to have reality slap me upside the head. I blame her and of course she’s not intentionally “doing” anything. It’s just the current reality. Easy to say when I’m not in the heat of the moment.
Last night W was questioning me because I left before came home from work to go fishing. I picked up d13 from softball and then left again after feeding her supper. W was on the way home from the gym and I headed out to get a beer and tacos. She felt I was avoiding her. I started off on the right path just saying I just wanted to go fishing and then later I wanted to go out for awhile. She was skeptical and that lead to a talk about the R and things that have been bothering me lately. I know better. I screwed up. The only “positive” that came from it was her saying she wants to be with me and isn’t thinking about D. She’s just terribly unhappy. Did not try to “fix” her unhappiness so I at least did that right. I texted her a short message this morning apologizing for upsetting her last night and left it at that.
