Looks like the lockmonster took care of the old thread overnight. Time to start a new one for my fellow apartment dwellers. But here's the link to our old address:
I really was not in the mood to post today, but since the lock occurred, I decided to do it. I'm really struggling right now, and my issues are not with Mr. Wonderful. They are what is happening in the world around me: politics, wars, religion and local matters.
I dropped by D7's special ed teacher's house last night for a much needed chat. I will start by saying I adore her; she has a wonderful H and a darling almost D2. The day she came to take over D7's school was the day my life changed for the better. And she has a wonderful team working with her.
She grabbed me and pulled me outside to tell me that one of D7's TA's committed suicide nearly 3 weeks ago. She was told not to say anything because either the principal or the school district decided it was best for the children not to know that she died, only because they didn't want to say how.
This woman was younger than I am. I felt twangs of something when we were at an art show a month ago and she mentioned that she wanted to babysit, because she said she didn't have a life. D7 loved this woman, and the TA loved her back. I had no idea that she was living such a painful existence.
What is worse is that she was loved at the school. Because of how she died, nobody will have the opportunity to acknowledge her gifts, her passing and grieve. And I think this is wrong.
I will miss her. She was a talented person with a gift for seeing beyond the obvious to find the soul underneath. I hope she's happier now.
Contrary to what I was told, I pulled D10 and D7 aside (separately) at home last night to tell them. D10 cried and I was once again forced to acknowledge a subject I think is tough for 10 year olds (it's tough for 42 year olds too). Then D7 got a pouty lip and was sad.
I just hope the other kids have the chance to miss her like she deserves... not to be told that she just went away or was transferred. What a tragic ending for a very special person.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Betsey 
