OK, confession. After my positive day yesterday, the past 24 hours have not been my finest in terms of DB'ing. Got into a text exchange last night (1st mistake) & got drawn in to him saying he didn't know where it went wrong and now we'll never know. I panicked and responded with emotions (2nd mistake) and said we can get it back, but he would need to be ready to do that. I regret the exchange & he stopped messaging after me saying that. I then felt anxious all night and didn't sleep. Got up early this morning and he was already up having a bath. He came downstairs dressed to go out. I asked him where he was going (3rd mistake). He said just out and I badgered for more info (4th mistake). He then said he was going to a meeting at work (this was part of a pre existing elaborate lie) and I challenged him on this (5th mistake). He went out, clearly irritated with me & I cried. I'm noticing what I should be doing after the event but not always catching myself before responding to urges to seek reassurance and love. I can absolutely see this is not helpful but find it hard.
